Torn
      03.11.97


1: Torn

I thought I saw a man brought to life
He was warm, he came around like he was dignified
He showed me what it was to cry
Well you couldn't be that man I adored
You don't seem to know, seem to care what your heart is for
But I don't know him anymore
There's nothing where he used to lie
My conversation has run dry
That's what's going on
Nothing's fine I'm torn

I'm all out of faith
This is how I feel
I'm cold and I am shamed
Lying naked on the floor
Illusion never changed
Into something real
I'm wide awake and I can see
The perfect sky is torn
You're a little late
I'm already torn

So I guess the fortune teller's right
Should have seen just what was there
And not some holy light
Which crawled beneath my veins
And now I don't care, I had no luck
I don't miss it all that much
There's just so many things
That I can touch, I'm torn

I'm all out of faith
This is how I feel
I'm cold and I am shamed
Lying naked on the floor
Illusion never changed
Into something real
I'm wide awake
And I can see
The perfect sky is torn
You're a little late
I'm already torn
Torn

There's nothing where he used to lie
My inspiration has run dry
That's what's going on
Nothing's right, I'm torn
I'm all out of faith
This is how I feel
I'm cold and I am shamed
Lying naked on the floor
Illusion never changed
Into something real
I'm wide awake and I can see
The perfect sky is torn

I'm all out of faith
This is how I feel
I'm cold and I'm ashamed
Bound and broken on the floor
You're a little late
I'm already torn
Torn


2: Contradictions

Seventeen years in a dead end job
Telling his dreams to a deaf eared god
Hangin' on tight by a single thread
Prayin' for a change
Everything you could have sacrificed
Your flesh and blood had it's own sweet price
Baby's all grown up and moved away
Where's that leave you now
It was your own decision
You made my life your mission

Somebody tell me (it doesn't make no sense at all)
Somebody tell me
Why we're living in a world of contradiction
Somebody tell me (it doesn't make no sense at all)
Somebody tell me
Why we're living in a world of contradiction

Why is it so hard to be understood
Doing so much for the common good
Sorry if I didn't see the truth
The sadness in your eyes
I wanted to stand on my own two feet
Looking at life as a one way street
Thinking that I had it all worked out
Where's that leave me now
We lost communication
Too many expectations

Somebody tell me (it doesn't make no sense at all)
Somebody tell me
Why we're living in a world of contradiction
Somebody tell me (it doesn't make no sense at all)
Somebody tell me
Why we're living in a world of contradiction

Everything I have inside
I kept it wrapped up tight
All I know is
All I want to know is
Somebody tell me
Somebody tell me (it doesn't make no sense at all)
Somebody tell me
Why we're living in a world of contradiction
In a world of contradiction
Seventeen years in a dead end job
Telling his dreams to a deaf eared god
Hangin' on tight by a single thread
Where's that leave you now


3: Sometimes

Isn't it like me
To want to say
Things I can't explain
In simple ways
Why should I be sane
Why can't I be crazy

Sometimes I'm up
Sometimes I'm down
I choke on words and make no sound
Sometimes
Sometimes I'm weak
Sometimes I'm strong
Living with the fear I don't belong
Sometimes

Why is it so hard
To know myself
Underneath this skin you'll find
Someone else
Don't be so suprised
When you look inside me

Inside me
Sometimes it's black
Sometimes it's white
You hide behind electric light

Sometimes
Sometimes I swear
Sometimes I pray
Suddenly the guilty dissobey

Sometimes
Sometimes I'm weak
Sometimes I'm strong
Living with the fear I don't belong

Sometimes
Sometimes I stand
Sometimes I fall
I throw myself against the wall

Sometimes
Sometimes I sink
Sometimes I swim
Yell me why my world is caving in

Sometimes
Sometimes it's sweet
Sometimes it's raw
Trying to get so high like I did before

Sometimes
Sometimes in love
Sometimes in hate
Sometimes it's all a big mistake
Sometimes


4: Frightened Child

I hear your silent scream
Deep in your private dream
Two ways to go from here
One way will bring you near
Fragile wish
Full moon, no rain, no shame
That distance still remains
More shades of grey to come
We've been through more than one
Close your eyes
Like a frightened child
Fragile in spirit
Like a wind blowin' wild
No name you can give it
Like an infant I see in the light for the very first time
No tricks, no slight of hand
Find somewhere safe to land
Before your walls were shaken
But now the whole thing's brakin'
And it makes you feel
Like a frightened child
Fragile in spirit
Like a wind blowin' wild
No name you can give it
Like an infant I see in the light for the very first time
Yes, your right
What is right?
Yes it's night I can tell
Yes it shows
Yes I know
You're a beautiful stranger to yourself


5: Diving In The Deep End

Why should it be
Someone like me
Could make the same mistakes again
Haven't I learned
People get hurt
When they go diving in the deep end
In the deep end
In the deep end
In the deep end
Thought I was smart
Controlling the art
Of turning off my intuition
Havent I seen
Since I was fourteen
That life is all just repetition
You loose all your whim
You sink or you swim
When you go diving in the deep end
In the deep end
In the deep end
In the deep end
It's time to realize
You don't have to agonise
You don't have to compromise
But the one thing you must do
Is open your eyes
Your eyes
Your eyes
Why should it be
Someone like me
Could make the same mistakes again
Havent I learned
People get hurt
When they go diving
Diving
Diving
Diving